Time to drown in tears again Self-pity At time I fear I am my only friend Forgive me I promised I would leave you alone But our bond won't be severed You threw me a bone I was emotionally tethered Asking myself everyday Could we ever be together again? I know the answer is never But you know I'll never change No, I'll never change And it's wrong to be so jealous It's wrong

For the Dead So, To those still alive: Will you grieve for every lost tribe? Will you pray for every woman raped in wartime? Will you mourn for every victim of every genocide? Will you sympathize with everyone that survived? Would you cry if the violin wept? Would it inspire you to sing till silence steals your last breath? Will you weep for the dead? Will you weep when the rivers run red? Will you weep for the dead? Will you weep for wheelchair Fred? Wheelchair Freddy wasn't ready For his limbs to turn in to spaghetti Sure is a pity Even before that shit his life was pretty shitty Mommy lost her dignity When he was diagnosed with muscular dystrophy Been drink's steady, started to lose it Haunted by visions of what her life would never be In her rage she became quite abusive To what she considered an intrusive nuisance Daddy was too busy making ends meet To notice all the bruises on Freddy Until it was too late Thinking they should've gotten an abortion Oh, the hate Now they're divorcing Poor things couldn't afford their mistake And the whole time these horrors were unfolding at home Fred was in the cafeteria eating all alone No bros, not even close to adults Everyones he knows makes life more difficult Until he was a sophomore Then he started to talk more When one day much to his surprise A couple semi-hot girls Appeared right before his eyes He was at a loss for words They were talking to him And he didn't know why It was all a blur They started to chill sometimes Introduced him to a couple more girls And a couple’ve guys First time in the world he had friends It made him feel so alive BriBri stayed over one night Couldn't do anything sexual so he didn't even try They were growing closer and it did feel nice But than he began to realize He was wearing a disguise Because he could never be a real part of their lives And as soon as he began to enjoy them They began to avoid him Began to annoy him He began to have fantasies of destroying them Subconsciously swallowing the same poison Nothing changed, like it ever wood He accepted his social skills weren't so good He didn't talk to anyone Though his therapist thought they should Fred didn't care Constantly despising everyone who ever stood His mobilized scooter became a lonely throne He forgot about everyone he's ever known So bitter it shows Back in the cafeteria Sitting all alone And at college it's still the same song When I reviewed his essay I spelt his name wrong He doesn't even come into the hub because he doesn't belong You simply won't catch the kid smoking no bong And when he isn't in class no on notices he's gone Now, Isaac Newton died a virgin And Fred will do the same But unlike Newton few will claim To even be able to remember his name Unaware of his pain Now, when I see Wheelchair Fred roll my way I run away Because I know his shame And how quickly life can waste away Like his muscles So go roll away Freddy I know it sounds petty But I will always remain dedicated to the hustle Oh Wheelchair Freddy, why do you make me feel this way? You've been labelled disabled And there's no way you'll be able To not take that label to grave Karma denied you the things you crave Be brave baby I know it sounds insane And it may be But would you really shed a tear if they didn't save me? Will you grieve for every lost tribe? Will you pray for every woman raped in wartime? Will you mourn for every victim of every genocide? Will you sympathize with everyone that survived? Will you weep for the dead? Will you weep when the rivers run red? Will you weep for the dead? Will you weep when you feel the scissors slice the thread? Will you weep for the dead? Will you weep when you see the end? Well Will you? Will you weep for the dead? Or would you rather weep for yourself instead?

I'm on a journey to be heard People used to tell me you can't hurt me with your words Are you sure? Desert the theatre of the absurd Love is for the birds I've been cured of that desire While I preferred to burn Inspired by the fires So tired Vison blurred Try speaking thru barbed wire and see if your speech isn't slurred There's a choir in heaven Assuring me the situation is dire But what's worse The prophecy or the curse? My body was public property at first Till the odysee was properly disbursed Immersed headfirst Into my birth reversed There's no point reliving your misgivings When your head is spinning with thirst Dead The end Beginning to comprehend Most men cannot defend their creations They befriend desperation And burn like cremation from the start They descend into desolation I turn isolation into real art inspiration comes from my steel heart The congregation gathers to hear me so they can feel smart Though one day they will attempt to peel me apart I'm not exempt from the grating hell of reality Casualties still feel sensuality Where once was a soul that failed me Now lies only a cold black cavity Never to be filled in by human emotion I see the future in slow motion Notions deeper then oceans I seek the means to an end And achieve it with no commotion Leave the comfort of home behind What you dream of is only a stone's throw in kind Blinded by cold No status quo defined Most are confined To limited lives When they can't describe what's on their mind And I? I depicted the sickest images of hell and heaven combined Inclined to grab life by the horns and swarm it you think there's nothing more to find in the storm? Misinformed Get out of the warmth of your dorm ya damn conformist My brain stay insulated You all do the same thing every day like your syndicated I look out from inside the blizzard and see that I'll never be integrated This is the illustration of my point Still waiting to be vindicated I'm trying to escape the simulated conversation I can't take it The hatred, the fakeness Makes me wanna break shit And make outrageous statements Makes me think when you go famous the brain quits And to me That's what shame is I might be on a road to nowhere If so I'll take it alone I don't care, my hope froze Encased the cold I said I might be on a road to nowhere If so I'll take it alone I don't care, my hope froze Encased the cold I know I'm alive because I can feel the wind Still blowin' look at the world I'm in Still going I burn up my sins And smoke memories I throw empty bottles At the homes of my old enemies I stay in doors for days And move on when I have the energy I stay healthy somehow Except for the lethargy scuffle up Cheetos And duck jeopardy Treachery is unavoidable I still exploit it tho Ice cold It's this again Poor excuse for a citizen Lack disciple I could have sworn I heard a voice but it's the wind I might be on a road to nowhere If so I'll take it alone I don't care, my hope froze Encased the cold I said I might be on a road to nowhere If so I'll take it alone I don't care, my hope froze Encased the cold

Hey Don't be so worried about tomorrow That you're always in hurry to finish with today It seems like you got lot's of dreams about who'll you'll be and the places you'll see but don't cha know that they're all gonna slip away? Now I know what you're probably thinking But I'll never remember what you're trying to say so you might as well fuckin' chill on that Still, when you're ship has sailed and you've decided to stay well l hope you'll remember your old friend BK And I think frankly you've made a grave mistake in craving Sick days and paid vacations instead of trying saving your generation I think you're wasting your inspiration Some of the questions you're asking have no explanations They're baseless and I've got no more time to find your great big revelations Don't understand my frustration Cuz I couldn't give a damn if you did I'm complacent I hope every memory you have what remains exactly the the way it tasted because there's no way to escape this even the greatest things we savor are all gonna slip away. See, regrettably every memory we made became just an effigy that we'll split down the center to be burned separately that's acceptable though I wish I could have kept one of the especially special pieces next to me those were the seeds of ecstasy But I'd be a hypocrite If i guarded my treasure endlessly So everything I love, envy or cherish I'm gonna set it free When I slip away and I don't know Maybe we should love each other like one, another Let's just shut up about everything we suffered and slip away Tell me when you've had enough and then we'll skip today I don't give shit to play I'm just a young nigga trying to get Good, we square I'd don't even care if you care that I don't care Tell me what you really need when you don't breathe air beware you could be a millionaire Or gather a million prayers But I swear that's all gonna slip away So you better prepare for what we all share and I'll be there when you face despair Still singing the same "I don't care" song and that's not fair, it's wrong but I can't give a damn so so long because I am what I am A man. Hell, Life doesn't seem so long when ya gone And until that point this is just something to dwell on Dwell on Before you slip away You weigh me down with what's hurtin' you when you can't explain what's hurtin me and even though this is so personal you shouldn't take it so personally it wasn't what it was supposed to be My love was murdered in the first degree Now it's locked away plotting ways to burst free I loved, I lost I lust at a cost My trust was was tossed aside there were some crossed lines but pay it no mind It's all over no closure Composure turned frost The light has gone off. and it was all in vain I wrote her a love song. and she told me i'm insane.