Me and negativity agree: You can clear your conscience But there will always be new conflicts Born under a bad sign On the cusp of cancer These are sad times Never believed in intelligent design Even when I was high Love is a battlefield lined with strip mines Strip club serenity soothes sick minds Never had time to confess their crimes Some smoke their boges down to the filter But I flick mines Inflicted with addictions Just as I predicted Reenforcing my convictions I just did it to get mines I'll sip this bitter elixir till the well runs dry I'll do bad things because I'm the bad guy Beauty tears me open Happiness makes me cry Forbidden fruit is the sweetest You're the apple of my eye And it's a sin just to think of you And it's a crime just to look you And it's a tragedy just to touch you And it's a catastrophe just to love you It's torture to desire you It's torment to cherish you It's sorrow to yearn for you It's suffering to lust for you And it's agony to crave you And it's anguish to need you And it's painful to wish for you And it hurts just to be with you But it's hell to be without you And it's wrong for me to want you It's wrong Wrong It's wrong for me to want you It's wrong Wrong Couldn't love you less Lost all my respect I'll treat you like an object My feelings for you are complex Madonna-Whore Complex These feelings won't go unchecked Separate your love from your sex No more secrets kept I'm being far too direct I'm too easy to neglect I'm too easy to reject I forgot what I represent Conceded the argument It wasn't an accident I once was passionate Seems disproportionate Cuz all that's left is abandonment I've had it up to here with this establishment I'd be the happiest man alive if I was earth's last inhabitant And I don't believe in God But I'm the devil's advocate I'm my own arch-nemesis I put all my emphasis on the negative shit We're all caught up in our own conflicts Until they're eclipsed At the genesis of a new abyss If life sucks get a new bitch Ain't no problem without a quick fix Pull the trigger on yourself or face your conflicts Some people think I need to get a grip And stick to the script And stay in my lane And play their game People think I'm strange People think I'm deranged And maybe that's sane But I know I'll never change Change Change And no, I'll never change Change Change Were all caught up in our own conflicts until we're in a ditch Your a fuckin' bitch An unscratchable itch on my soul Which is now the system's piss hole Speaking of which, I have never been whole Don't you wish you were rich enough to flip the switch up and be the change? and become the thing you wish you had became? you played the game and your all the same and your whose to blame And you know I'll never change We're all caught up in own conflicts Until we don't exist dismissed off the list Awfully pissed Where's the twist? There's isn't one? What a bunch of shit yeah How does it feel to be nothing but a digit? You must be livid But then again ignorance has no limit Can't you take a hint? This guilt trip has no kill switch You either pull the trigger on yourself or face your conflicts Either die with your sins Or live with the shame and try to burn what's left of the sorrow that remains Look at the thing you became You put that poison in your veins and tainted your brain and fed on what they gave and take and take and never save I hope you never change No Never change change change Never change No never change Change Change Change Change Change Change oh and it's sick to even think of you and it burns to even look at you and it's terrible to even to touch you And it's horrible to even love you It's wicked to desire you it's awful to cherish you it's vile to yearn for you it's loathsome to lust for you and it's depraved to crave your and it's disgusting to need you and it's evil to wish for you and it's punishment to even be near you But I can't go on without you And it's wrong to live without you it's wrong it's wrong wrong it's wrong to live without you it's wrong wrong We're all caught up in our own bullshit Nobody give a shit how you live Nobody give a shit bout your kids or where you work and what you make unless you've got something they can take unless you've got something to lose unless you're something they can use You say got a gift Nobody gives a shit New relationship? Nobody gives a shit Sorry true believers Your accomplishments label you underachievers Why are we constantly seeking validation? How will that result in a balanced equation? You spend everyday nervously treading the tightrope Just to find there's no room left in the last lifeboat It's nice to have goals I hope you keep that hand and never fold I'm sooo caught up in my own conflicts Bearer of the cross Calling for my own conviction Repeat after me: "I am a slave to my condition" I'd save you from the same if I could write the prescription but all I write is this My crucifixion all I do is shit and piss It's all we ever do We all shed our basic instincts subsequently struggling to avoid giving in to influence But that's all we ever do And you can say your the one making the movements But you hope that's never true And you can say your not the one making the motions But you know that's never true Oh, woe is you And it sucks and it blows and it stings This state of flux is no way to bring positive change I'll never change Rearranging the same seven obstacles clinging on to ancient obsessions because I can't afford new possessions I'm sooo caught up in my own conflicts Why can't I just quit? I can't commit I've lost my direction I've lost my erection I've lost my affection I've lost my affection I'm a perfectionist who's never seen perfection I'm a realist, yet need to alter my perception I'm a specialist in nothing but my own depression Thermostats can barely measure my temperament Frostburn evident I neglected my regiment I reside within my deficient The future's never definite I am not affectionate I am just a pessimist I am not affectionate That is just irrelevant Your too caught up in your own conflicts for that to even resonate I'm too caught up in my own conflicts to ever elevate Your too caught up in your own conflicts to even hesitate I'm too caught up in my own conflicts I need to meditate

Oh, baby It's been so long since we talked That I can't even remember the last thing we talked about But I still remember how it felt to hear so much resentment in your voice And it's been so long since we fought about How we got nothing to to talk about I've almost convinced myself it's all noise I was just your toy I care about you more now more than you ever cared about me And it feels like I've been whispering that over and over in my own ear For at least a century We weren't meant to be But you knew you meant so much to me I tried to downplay your sexuality You were so pretty I could've waited an eternity But I don't blame you for eventually needing to get away from me That's fair I shouldn't have tried to make you fill the void I always made you so annoyed You always made me so jealous I used to give you presents Just to let you know I cared And every one in a while I'd say something stupid so you'd give me a smile Just to let me know I'm real I loved our wild little schemes I still want to give you everything you need I want you to feel the way I feel I want to give you all my seed But all you ever give me is five minutes in a dream I know I hurt you Hurts me too still hurts me every single time you find someone new You gave me fear, anxiety, tears and cigarettes when I was broke I gave you tears, lies, bad vibes and the first cigarette you ever smoked I gave you an addiction because I wanted you to be addicted to me Like I was addicted to you But I couldn't afford your love and love is never free Now all you ever give me is five minutes in a dream And baby all you ever give me Is five minutes in a dream Yeah, all you ever give me Is five minutes in a dream Why visit like this? Five blissful minutes Entranced by your ethereal image Isn't enough to explain where the light went You left me lifeless I spent all day craving you until I passed out from exhaustion And you arrived when the night did With all your devices Your timing is perfect like you look once you're all did up under the lights On the pedestal I always, always put you on And as soon as I begin imagining this fantasy will last You're gone I used to wanna fight like cats and dogs I'd stay awake until dawn Learning all the words to your favorite songs And it all felt worth it because I thought I would love you forever But I was wrong I thought I loved you just the way you were But I was wrong I didn't want you I wanted the angel inside you I didn't need you I needed the angel inside you I didn't want you I wanted what's inside of you I didn't need you I needed what's inside of you I didn't want you There's an angel inside of you I didn't need you There's an angel inside of you I don't want you I want the angel inside you I don't need you I need the angel inside you I don't want you I want what's inside of you I don't need you I need what's inside of you I don't want you There's an angel inside of you I don't need you There's an angel inside of you And I don't want you I only what's inside of you And I don't love you I only love what's inside of you I don't love you There's an angel inside of you And I don't love you I I love what's inside of you I don't love you There's an angel inside of you I don't want you any more You're a filthy little whore I don't love you any more Just leave me on the floor Leave my corpse to rot Cuz I gave you all I got can't give anything else I can't even help myself Thought you were heaven sent Instead I only loved what you represent There's an angel inside you Tore my pride in two Couldn't be your friend Now we'll never speak again

I'm on a journey to be heard People used to tell me you can't hurt me with your words Are you sure? Desert the theatre of the absurd Love is for the birds I've been cured of that desire While I preferred to burn Inspired by the fires So tired Vison blurred Try speaking thru barbed wire and see if your speech isn't slurred There's a choir in heaven Assuring me the situation is dire But what's worse The prophecy or the curse? My body was public property at first Till the odysee was properly disbursed Immersed headfirst Into my birth reversed There's no point reliving your misgivings When your head is spinning with thirst Dead The end Beginning to comprehend Most men cannot defend their creations They befriend desperation And burn like cremation from the start They descend into desolation I turn isolation into real art inspiration comes from my steel heart The congregation gathers to hear me so they can feel smart Though one day they will attempt to peel me apart I'm not exempt from the grating hell of reality Casualties still feel sensuality Where once was a soul that failed me Now lies only a cold black cavity Never to be filled in by human emotion I see the future in slow motion Notions deeper then oceans I seek the means to an end And achieve it with no commotion Leave the comfort of home behind What you dream of is only a stone's throw in kind Blinded by cold No status quo defined Most are confined To limited lives When they can't describe what's on their mind And I? I depicted the sickest images of hell and heaven combined Inclined to grab life by the horns and swarm it you think there's nothing more to find in the storm? Misinformed Get out of the warmth of your dorm ya damn conformist My brain stay insulated You all do the same thing every day like your syndicated I look out from inside the blizzard and see that I'll never be integrated This is the illustration of my point Still waiting to be vindicated I'm trying to escape the simulated conversation I can't take it The hatred, the fakeness Makes me wanna break shit And make outrageous statements Makes me think when you go famous the brain quits And to me That's what shame is I might be on a road to nowhere If so I'll take it alone I don't care, my hope froze Encased the cold I said I might be on a road to nowhere If so I'll take it alone I don't care, my hope froze Encased the cold I know I'm alive because I can feel the wind Still blowin' look at the world I'm in Still going I burn up my sins And smoke memories I throw empty bottles At the homes of my old enemies I stay in doors for days And move on when I have the energy I stay healthy somehow Except for the lethargy scuffle up Cheetos And duck jeopardy Treachery is unavoidable I still exploit it tho Ice cold It's this again Poor excuse for a citizen Lack disciple I could have sworn I heard a voice but it's the wind I might be on a road to nowhere If so I'll take it alone I don't care, my hope froze Encased the cold I said I might be on a road to nowhere If so I'll take it alone I don't care, my hope froze Encased the cold

Hey Don't be so worried about tomorrow That you're always in hurry to finish with today It seems like you got lot's of dreams about who'll you'll be and the places you'll see but don't cha know that they're all gonna slip away? Now I know what you're probably thinking But I'll never remember what you're trying to say so you might as well fuckin' chill on that Still, when you're ship has sailed and you've decided to stay well l hope you'll remember your old friend BK And I think frankly you've made a grave mistake in craving Sick days and paid vacations instead of trying saving your generation I think you're wasting your inspiration Some of the questions you're asking have no explanations They're baseless and I've got no more time to find your great big revelations Don't understand my frustration Cuz I couldn't give a damn if you did I'm complacent I hope every memory you have what remains exactly the the way it tasted because there's no way to escape this even the greatest things we savor are all gonna slip away. See, regrettably every memory we made became just an effigy that we'll split down the center to be burned separately that's acceptable though I wish I could have kept one of the especially special pieces next to me those were the seeds of ecstasy But I'd be a hypocrite If i guarded my treasure endlessly So everything I love, envy or cherish I'm gonna set it free When I slip away and I don't know Maybe we should love each other like one, another Let's just shut up about everything we suffered and slip away Tell me when you've had enough and then we'll skip today I don't give shit to play I'm just a young nigga trying to get Good, we square I'd don't even care if you care that I don't care Tell me what you really need when you don't breathe air beware you could be a millionaire Or gather a million prayers But I swear that's all gonna slip away So you better prepare for what we all share and I'll be there when you face despair Still singing the same "I don't care" song and that's not fair, it's wrong but I can't give a damn so so long because I am what I am A man. Hell, Life doesn't seem so long when ya gone And until that point this is just something to dwell on Dwell on Before you slip away You weigh me down with what's hurtin' you when you can't explain what's hurtin me and even though this is so personal you shouldn't take it so personally it wasn't what it was supposed to be My love was murdered in the first degree Now it's locked away plotting ways to burst free I loved, I lost I lust at a cost My trust was was tossed aside there were some crossed lines but pay it no mind It's all over no closure Composure turned frost The light has gone off. and it was all in vain I wrote her a love song. and she told me i'm insane.

I see the sun set and wonder where the day went some say as long as you're having a good time that's time well spent I try to live my life to the fullest and have no regrets but that state of mind might change yet Because I can't let the most fulfilling thing I do all day be when I get my ass out of bed and go outside to smoke a cigarette I dread facing the people I respect seeing how much my negativity affects Their goodhearted gestures I reject I would resurrect my values if I knew how to I brought my self down, I was bound to I looked in the mirror the other day and said I don't even want to be around you but I cant go on without you and I don't know what to do Sure is a pity feeling blue not enough dollars in my pocket to change my mood oh, by the way, I'm addicted to drugs to hey maybe I'm screwed maybe things'll never improve and I'm suck with this bad attitude but if that is a true claim I'll take it in stride and turn my guilty shame into filthy pride So far life has been a pretty shitty ride But I did all right considering I didn't even try

The glasses we finish are inconsequently small To cases of bottles lining shelves on a wall in a liquor store full of alcohol Sometimes we take 12 shots and claim we don't feel anything at all A few die from it most have a ball 15 Pushing themselves too far But for those that do choke on vomit damn that's really crap I only bought that bitch a drink to get her in the sack She loved my dumb, drunk raps Even though I was only explaining how bad I wanted to smash I'm just being honest I don't mean to be rash And even though that's nonsense she just laughed and that's whack I'm just a a hack with a knack for classless jokes so sacrilegious I never liked rules cause they're so damn rigid I just wanna get my dividends I watched my heart turn frigid and it didn't end So I did it again I used to have a lot of youthful energy and friends I replaced them with useful negativity and madness Absolute melancholy Infinite sadness Yeah man I said I replaced youthful energy with useful negativity and feasted upon that bittersweet misery I had to change the way people used to consider me and for that reason Karma is slowly killing me slipping slivers into my withered spleen Let's see how far you get with greed Tell me all about how far you went since I split the scene But I been smokin' weed since I was sixteen So I think it's safe to say that memory no longer applicably agrees You told me I'm different I agree self aware of the hate received Like when he at the talent show and he think he might Spit a few bars try to save the night Seems every time he step on stage he drop the mic Cause they cut him off as soon as they hear something they don't like That's why he tight Being told you've gone to far you're entire life pushes you to the point of not even trying to do what's right You stop tryin' to blend in If them wounds don't mend then I guess you could die proud of every dollar you didn't spend You got your dividends Me? I watched my heart turn frigid and it didn't end So I did it again I used to have a lot of youthful energy and friends I replaced them with useful negativity and madness Absolute melancholy Infinite sadness