Conflicts: The Best of PLD

by Pathetic Little Dog

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Collecting a version of every song in the PLD repertoire, this compilation features selections from all 3 PLD albums as well as rare and previously unreleased material.

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released February 11, 2015

perfomed by Pathetic Little Dog

PLD:
BK James: vocals, harmonica
Mario Baez: electric guitar, vocals (tracks 5 & 11)
Tom Wolfe: bass
Noah Scheer: piano, drums

with:
Aaron Bruzzo: acoustic guitar (tracks 7 & 13), bass (track 3)
Dylan Rice: additional electric guitar (track 3)

lyrics by BK James & music by Mario Baez
track 8 music by Tom Wolfe
track 11 lyrics and music by Lou Reed
recorded in 2013 & 2014 at SUNY Purchase

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BK James New Paltz, New York

BK James is the infamous co-founder of Three Penis Productions, an experimental music label, and has been steadily releasing music since a handful of BK & KGC songs appeared on Youtube in 2010. For more from BK, check out:

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Track Name: Walls
I see the sun set
and wonder where the day went
some say as long as you're having a good time that's time well spent
I try to live my life to the fullest and have no regrets
but that state of mind might change yet
Because I can't let
the most fulfilling thing I do all day be when I get
my ass out of bed and go outside to smoke a cigarette
I dread facing the people I respect
seeing how much my negativity affects
Their goodhearted gestures I reject
I would resurrect my values if I knew how to
I brought my self down, I was bound to
I looked in the mirror the other day and said I don't even want to be around you
but I cant go on without you
and I don't know what to do
Sure is a pity feeling blue
not enough dollars in my pocket to change my mood
oh, by the way, I'm addicted to drugs to
hey maybe I'm screwed
maybe things'll never improve
and I'm suck with this bad attitude
but if that is a true claim I'll take it in stride
and turn my guilty shame into filthy pride
So far life has been a pretty shitty ride
But I did all right considering I didn't even try
Track Name: The Angel Inside of You
Oh, baby
It's been so long since we talked
That I can't even remember the last thing we talked about
But I still remember how it felt to hear so much resentment in your voice
And it's been so long since we fought about
How we got nothing to to talk about
I've almost convinced myself it's all noise

I was just your toy

I care about you more now more than you ever cared about me
And it feels like I've been whispering that over and over in my own ear
For at least a century

We weren't meant to be
But you knew you meant so much to me
I tried to downplay your sexuality
You were so pretty
I could've waited an eternity
But I don't blame you for eventually needing to get away from me
That's fair
I shouldn't have tried to make you fill the void
I always made you so annoyed
You always made me so jealous
I used to give you presents
Just to let you know I cared
And every one in a while
I'd say something stupid so you'd give me a smile
Just to let me know I'm real
I loved our wild little schemes
I still want to give you everything you need
I want you to feel the way I feel
I want to give you all my seed
But all you ever give me
is five minutes in a dream

I know I hurt you
Hurts me too
still hurts me every single time you find someone new
You gave me fear, anxiety, tears
and cigarettes when I was broke
I gave you tears, lies, bad vibes
and the first cigarette you ever smoked
I gave you an addiction
because I wanted you to be addicted to me
Like I was addicted to you
But I couldn't afford your love and love is never free
Now all you ever give me
is five minutes in a dream

And baby all you ever give me
Is five minutes in a dream
Yeah, all you ever give me
Is five minutes in a dream

Why visit like this?
Five blissful minutes
Entranced by your ethereal image
Isn't enough to explain where the light went
You left me lifeless
I spent all day craving you until I passed out from exhaustion
And you arrived when the night did
With all your devices
Your timing is perfect like you look once you're all did up under the lights
On the pedestal I always, always put you on
And as soon as I begin imagining this fantasy will last
You're gone
I used to wanna fight like cats and dogs
I'd stay awake until dawn
Learning all the words to your favorite songs
And it all felt worth it because I thought I would love you forever
But I was wrong
I thought I loved you just the way you were
But I was wrong
I didn't want you
I wanted the angel inside you
I didn't need you
I needed the angel inside you
I didn't want you
I wanted what's inside of you
I didn't need you
I needed what's inside of you
I didn't want you
There's an angel inside of you
I didn't need you
There's an angel inside of you
I don't want you
I want the angel inside you
I don't need you
I need the angel inside you
I don't want you
I want what's inside of you
I don't need you
I need what's inside of you
I don't want you
There's an angel inside of you
I don't need you
There's an angel inside of you
And I don't want you
I only what's inside of you
And I don't love you
I only love what's inside of you
I don't love you
There's an angel inside of you
And I don't love you
I I love what's inside of you
I don't love you
There's an angel inside of you

I don't want you any more
You're a filthy little whore
I don't love you any more
Just leave me on the floor
Leave my corpse to rot
Cuz I gave you all I got
can't give anything else
I can't even help myself
Thought you were heaven sent
Instead I only loved what you represent

There's an angel inside you
Tore my pride in two
Couldn't be your friend
Now we'll never speak again
Track Name: The Irreversible Nature of Time
Life isn't fair
You learn that day one
It's all too much to bear by the time that day's done
You can hear time tick in the beat of the drum
Or watch it burn from the heat of the sun
you can taste time fly from the tip of your tongue
Or ten years later when your still coughing up lungs
You can smell time rotting when you live in a slum
But you notice it the most
When it's crawling slow
While you're alone and cold and numb
If it wan't for the irreversible nature of time I'd redo everything I ever done
If it wan't for the irreversible nature of time I'd redo everything I ever done

You can lick your wounds which I do
Or go looney tunes which I did
But you're still inching away from the womb
Into the waiting arms of some puny gloomy tomb if there's room for you
Which there is
I wish they'd stick me in the ground naked and careless
Like when I came into the world before I knew what fair is
Villains are just victims that are no longer children
So, you stepped into the system
Expecting to find a rhythm
Without realizing you were imprisoned
On the wrong side of the prism
They say alcoholism is curable
But autism isn't
Neither is capitalism
Our new religion
where christians join hands with sinners
To manipulate women and children
If you'll pardon the euphemism
Who took the youths ambition?
I used to be a musician
I used to perform compositions
Now I'm more like an oral mortician
Embalming the mortal remains of my morality
With more discipline
Might as well get it off my chest now before we're senior citizens

No more heartwarming normality for me
My inner war's first casualty's now long deceased
After ego death arrogance increased
Burning sexuality just took a short leave
Until the morning when I force-feed
Reality down my throat till I bleed
At some point in time we've all been deceived
Grieved
Then reconfigured the fundamentals of what we believe
Hiding beneath the sheets for weeks
Time leaps forward
But your progress creeps
We're splitting at the seams
Awake yet asleep
The cost of living is far too steep
Sometimes the irreversible nature of time makes me want to weep
Weep, weep
Sometimes the irreversible nature of time makes me want to weep
Weep, weep

Fast forward the bad moments and rewind the good times
If I could
Skip the breakup
Play my first kiss and pause it
Yeah, that would be good
Facebook can't keep track of everyone I un-friended
Burnt bridges can be rebuilt
But these wounds will not be mended
I used to be mature for my age
Now I'm just demented
Coulda been prevented
Too late to turn back
Ain't even worth the mention
It would've all faded to black
But I gave me an extension
The irreversible nature of time will get me eventually
Retained every shred of shame I ever gained
Never say I didn't pay my penalty
I only experience happiness seldomnly
I don't know where my heart is
I wish I was still sellin' weed
Cuz the irreversible nature of time will be the death of me regardless
And I'm still smoking' weed
cuz eternity ain't shit to me
You won't live to see
it's mystery
Gosh darn it
Track Name: Slipaway
Hey
Don't be so worried about tomorrow
That you're always in hurry to finish with today
It seems like you got lot's of dreams
about who'll you'll be and the places you'll see
but don't cha know that they're all gonna slip away?

Now I know what you're probably thinking
But I'll never remember what you're trying to say
so you might as well fuckin' chill on that
Still, when you're ship has sailed and you've decided to stay
well l hope you'll remember your old friend BK

And I think frankly you've made a grave mistake in craving
Sick days and paid vacations
instead of trying saving your generation
I think you're wasting your inspiration
Some of the questions you're asking have no explanations
They're baseless
and I've got no more time to find your great big revelations

Don't understand my frustration
Cuz I couldn't give a damn if you did
I'm complacent
I hope every memory you have what remains exactly the the way it tasted
because there's no way to escape this
even the greatest things we savor
are all gonna slip away.

See, regrettably
every memory
we made became just an effigy
that we'll split down the center to be burned separately
that's acceptable
though I wish I could have kept one of the especially special pieces next to me
those were the seeds of ecstasy

But I'd be a hypocrite If i guarded my treasure endlessly
So everything I love, envy or cherish I'm gonna set it free

When I slip away
and I don't know
Maybe we should love each other
like one,
another
Let's just shut up about everything we suffered
and slip away
Tell me when you've had enough
and then we'll skip today
I don't give shit to play
I'm just a young nigga trying to get

Good, we square
I'd don't even care if you care that I don't care
Tell me what you really need when you don't breathe air
beware
you could be a millionaire
Or gather a million prayers
But I swear that's all gonna slip away

So you better prepare for what we all share
and I'll be there when you face despair
Still singing the same "I don't care" song
and that's not fair, it's wrong
but I can't give a damn so
so long
because I am what I am
A man.
Hell,
Life doesn't seem so long when ya gone
And until that point this is just something to dwell on
Dwell on
Before you slip away

You
weigh me down
with what's hurtin' you
when you can't explain
what's hurtin me
and even though this is so personal
you shouldn't take it so personally
it wasn't what it was supposed to be
My love was murdered in the first degree
Now it's locked away plotting ways to burst free
I loved, I lost
I lust
at a cost
My trust
was was tossed aside
there were some crossed lines
but pay it no mind
It's all over
no closure
Composure turned frost
The light has gone off
and it was all in vain
I wrote her a love song
and she told me i'm insane
Track Name: Road to Nowhere / Wind
I'm on a journey to be heard
People used to tell me you can't hurt me with your words
Are you sure?
Desert the theatre of the absurd
Love is for the birds
I've been cured of that desire
While I preferred to burn
Inspired by the fires
So tired
Vison blurred
Try speaking thru barbed wire and see if your speech isn't slurred
There's a choir in heaven
Assuring me the situation is dire
But what's worse
The prophecy or the curse?
My body was public property at first
Till the odysee was properly disbursed
Immersed headfirst
Into my birth reversed
There's no point reliving your misgivings
When your head is spinning with thirst
Dead
The end
Beginning to comprehend
Most men cannot defend their creations
They befriend desperation
And burn like cremation from the start
They descend into desolation
I turn isolation into real art
inspiration comes from my steel heart
The congregation gathers to hear me so they can feel smart
Though one day they will attempt to peel me apart
I'm not exempt from the grating hell of reality
Casualties still feel sensuality
Where once was a soul that failed me
Now lies only a cold black cavity
Never to be filled in by human emotion
I see the future in slow motion
Notions deeper then oceans
I seek the means to an end
And achieve it with no commotion
Leave the comfort of home behind
What you dream of is only a stone's throw in kind
Blinded by cold
No status quo defined
Most are confined
To limited lives
When they can't describe what's on their mind
And I?
I depicted the sickest images of hell and heaven combined
Inclined to grab life by the horns and swarm it
you think there's nothing more to find in the storm?
Misinformed
Get out of the warmth of your dorm ya damn conformist

My brain stay insulated
You all do the same thing every day like your syndicated
I look out from inside the blizzard and see that I'll never be integrated
This is the illustration of my point
Still waiting to be vindicated
I'm trying to escape the simulated conversation
I can't take it
The hatred, the fakeness
Makes me wanna break shit
And make outrageous statements
Makes me think when you go famous the brain quits
And to me
That's what shame is

I might be on a road to nowhere
If so I'll take it alone
I don't care, my hope froze
Encased the cold

I said I might be on a road to nowhere
If so I'll take it alone
I don't care, my hope froze
Encased the cold

I know I'm alive because I can feel the wind
Still blowin'
look at the world I'm in
Still going
I burn up my sins
And smoke memories
I throw empty bottles
At the homes of my old enemies
I stay in doors for days
And move on when I have the energy
I stay healthy somehow
Except for the lethargy
scuffle up Cheetos
And duck jeopardy
Treachery is unavoidable
I still exploit it tho
Ice cold
It's this again
Poor excuse for a citizen
Lack disciple
I could have sworn I heard a voice
but it's the wind

I might be on a road to nowhere
If so I'll take it alone
I don't care, my hope froze
Encased the cold

I said I might be on a road to nowhere
If so I'll take it alone
I don't care, my hope froze
Encased the cold
Track Name: Fallen Empire
Not content to inherit irrelevance I think hip-hop:
Needs more intelligence
Change the format, try new experiments. Quit chasing dead ends
And deader presidents
converted my residence into a place where i can make new developments
no precedent
exit my presence when I
Represent
Faithless
Sounding like I'm heaven sent

I've never had faith before
Fate is fake, why do we adore the image?
Like what's in store is worth the wait if you receive the privilege
We could wax poetic more conformist debate
But your rhetoric is vintage
That pale horse proposition cannot device the villagers
We already sacrificed tradition
The code written for our children
Says don't believe your mind, heart or vision
Relieved of their ambitions
So they don't notice that the world we live in is one big prison
And if the kid''s unfit for the mission
Give him more prescriptions
Clinical nutrition
Life is a gift, the only thing given
The sum total of which is worth less than a pot to piss in
Some sinner's seek Heaven's admission
Spend their whole lives trying to be forgiven
Even if they found a gate there'd be no way to get in
We're quick to forget history
This isn't existence's definition
Just an accurate description of its mystery

I'm a Newport fiend
Life's too short
Abort the scene
Forget the past
Ignore your dreams
The more I breathe
The more it seems like
My attributes are actually acid, right?
Yeah, this hella pessimistic fat basterd spit it tight
I been
goin in ass backwards for like the past nines nights
burn bright earn hype learn to love the lime light
Leave earth come back try to find life
look in my eyes when I'm done you'd think I died twice
time's up
and time was valuable
Cold as ice
and half as casual
BK the actual manic
gimmie hand claps
for the silly raps packed with practical facts
that's fuckin magic
On the main line aim tactical
Harder a cracked rock I be smackin you
ooh thats tragic like human trafficking
mixed with graphic slapstick
you ain't got half the practice
that whack shit's fruitier then a bitch's chapstick
believe that or seek action
come back when you've got half a fraction
I diss satisfaction
hack you up like allergic reaction
my head spins when i lack traction
pack up you bargain bin has been
i had sinned with women
cause i'm conditioned
did not pledge allegiance to the devil
I'm a One man joy division
Now sit back and watch the ruins of a fallen empire glisten
listen
Track Name: For the Dead
So,
To those still alive:

Will you grieve for every lost tribe?
Will you pray for every woman raped in wartime?
Will you mourn for every victim of every genocide?
Will you sympathize with everyone that survived?
Would you cry if the violin wept?
Would it inspire you to sing till silence steals your last breath?
Will you weep for the dead?
Will you weep when the rivers run red?
Will you weep for the dead?
Will you weep for wheelchair Fred?

Wheelchair Freddy wasn't ready
For his limbs to turn in to spaghetti
Sure is a pity
Even before that shit his life was pretty shitty
Mommy lost her dignity
When he was diagnosed with muscular dystrophy
Been drink's steady, started to lose it
Haunted by visions of what her life would never be
In her rage she became quite abusive
To what she considered an intrusive nuisance
Daddy was too busy making ends meet
To notice all the bruises on Freddy
Until it was too late
Thinking they should've gotten an abortion
Oh, the hate
Now they're divorcing
Poor things couldn't afford their mistake
And the whole time these horrors were unfolding at home
Fred was in the cafeteria eating all alone
No bros, not even close to adults
Everyones he knows makes life more difficult
Until he was a sophomore
Then he started to talk more
When one day much to his surprise
A couple semi-hot girls
Appeared right before his eyes
He was at a loss for words
They were talking to him
And he didn't know why
It was all a blur
They started to chill sometimes
Introduced him to a couple more girls
And a couple’ve guys
First time in the world he had friends
It made him feel so alive
BriBri stayed over one night
Couldn't do anything sexual so he didn't even try
They were growing closer and it did feel nice
But than he began to realize
He was wearing a disguise
Because he could never be a real part of their lives
And as soon as he began to enjoy them
They began to avoid him
Began to annoy him
He began to have fantasies of destroying them
Subconsciously swallowing the same poison
Nothing changed, like it ever wood
He accepted his social skills weren't so good
He didn't talk to anyone
Though his therapist thought they should
Fred didn't care
Constantly despising everyone who ever stood
His mobilized scooter became a lonely throne
He forgot about everyone he's ever known
So bitter it shows
Back in the cafeteria
Sitting all alone
And at college it's still the same song
When I reviewed his essay I spelt his name wrong
He doesn't even come into the hub because he doesn't belong
You simply won't catch the kid smoking no bong
And when he isn't in class no on notices he's gone
Now, Isaac Newton died a virgin
And Fred will do the same
But unlike Newton few will claim
To even be able to remember his name
Unaware of his pain
Now, when I see Wheelchair Fred roll my way
I run away
Because I know his shame
And how quickly life can waste away
Like his muscles
So go roll away Freddy
I know it sounds petty
But I will always remain dedicated to the hustle
Oh Wheelchair Freddy, why do you make me feel this way?
You've been labelled disabled
And there's no way you'll be able
To not take that label to grave
Karma denied you the things you crave
Be brave baby
I know it sounds insane
And it may be
But would you really shed a tear if they didn't save me?

Will you grieve for every lost tribe?
Will you pray for every woman raped in wartime?
Will you mourn for every victim of every genocide?
Will you sympathize with everyone that survived?
Will you weep for the dead?
Will you weep when the rivers run red?
Will you weep for the dead?
Will you weep when you feel the scissors slice the thread?
Will you weep for the dead?
Will you weep when you see the end?

Well
Will you?
Will you weep for the dead?
Or would you rather weep for yourself instead?