Oh, baby It's been so long since we talked That I can't even remember the last thing we talked about But I still remember how it felt to hear so much resentment in your voice And it's been so long since we fought about How we got nothing to to talk about I've almost convinced myself it's all noise I was just your toy I care about you more now more than you ever cared about me And it feels like I've been whispering that over and over in my own ear For at least a century We weren't meant to be But you knew you meant so much to me I tried to downplay your sexuality You were so pretty I could've waited an eternity But I don't blame you for eventually needing to get away from me That's fair I shouldn't have tried to make you fill the void I always made you so annoyed You always made me so jealous I used to give you presents Just to let you know I cared And every one in a while I'd say something stupid so you'd give me a smile Just to let me know I'm real I loved our wild little schemes I still want to give you everything you need I want you to feel the way I feel I want to give you all my seed But all you ever give me is five minutes in a dream I know I hurt you Hurts me too still hurts me every single time you find someone new You gave me fear, anxiety, tears and cigarettes when I was broke I gave you tears, lies, bad vibes and the first cigarette you ever smoked I gave you an addiction because I wanted you to be addicted to me Like I was addicted to you But I couldn't afford your love and love is never free Now all you ever give me is five minutes in a dream And baby all you ever give me Is five minutes in a dream Yeah, all you ever give me Is five minutes in a dream Why visit like this? Five blissful minutes Entranced by your ethereal image Isn't enough to explain where the light went You left me lifeless I spent all day craving you until I passed out from exhaustion And you arrived when the night did With all your devices Your timing is perfect like you look once you're all did up under the lights On the pedestal I always, always put you on And as soon as I begin imagining this fantasy will last You're gone I used to wanna fight like cats and dogs I'd stay awake until dawn Learning all the words to your favorite songs And it all felt worth it because I thought I would love you forever But I was wrong I thought I loved you just the way you were But I was wrong I didn't want you I wanted the angel inside you I didn't need you I needed the angel inside you I didn't want you I wanted what's inside of you I didn't need you I needed what's inside of you I didn't want you There's an angel inside of you I didn't need you There's an angel inside of you I don't want you I want the angel inside you I don't need you I need the angel inside you I don't want you I want what's inside of you I don't need you I need what's inside of you I don't want you There's an angel inside of you I don't need you There's an angel inside of you And I don't want you I only what's inside of you And I don't love you I only love what's inside of you I don't love you There's an angel inside of you And I don't love you I I love what's inside of you I don't love you There's an angel inside of you I don't want you any more You're a filthy little whore I don't love you any more Just leave me on the floor Leave my corpse to rot Cuz I gave you all I got can't give anything else I can't even help myself Thought you were heaven sent Instead I only loved what you represent There's an angel inside you Tore my pride in two Couldn't be your friend Now we'll never speak again

I'm on a journey to be heard People used to tell me you can't hurt me with your words Are you sure? Desert the theatre of the absurd Love is for the birds I've been cured of that desire While I preferred to burn Inspired by the fires So tired Vison blurred Try speaking thru barbed wire and see if your speech isn't slurred There's a choir in heaven Assuring me the situation is dire But what's worse The prophecy or the curse? My body was public property at first Till the odysee was properly disbursed Immersed headfirst Into my birth reversed There's no point reliving your misgivings When your head is spinning with thirst Dead The end Beginning to comprehend Most men cannot defend their creations They befriend desperation And burn like cremation from the start They descend into desolation I turn isolation into real art inspiration comes from my steel heart The congregation gathers to hear me so they can feel smart Though one day they will attempt to peel me apart I'm not exempt from the grating hell of reality Casualties still feel sensuality Where once was a soul that failed me Now lies only a cold black cavity Never to be filled in by human emotion I see the future in slow motion Notions deeper then oceans I seek the means to an end And achieve it with no commotion Leave the comfort of home behind What you dream of is only a stone's throw in kind Blinded by cold No status quo defined Most are confined To limited lives When they can't describe what's on their mind And I? I depicted the sickest images of hell and heaven combined Inclined to grab life by the horns and swarm it you think there's nothing more to find in the storm? Misinformed Get out of the warmth of your dorm ya damn conformist My brain stay insulated You all do the same thing every day like your syndicated I look out from inside the blizzard and see that I'll never be integrated This is the illustration of my point Still waiting to be vindicated I'm trying to escape the simulated conversation I can't take it The hatred, the fakeness Makes me wanna break shit And make outrageous statements Makes me think when you go famous the brain quits And to me That's what shame is I might be on a road to nowhere If so I'll take it alone I don't care, my hope froze Encased the cold I said I might be on a road to nowhere If so I'll take it alone I don't care, my hope froze Encased the cold I know I'm alive because I can feel the wind Still blowin' look at the world I'm in Still going I burn up my sins And smoke memories I throw empty bottles At the homes of my old enemies I stay in doors for days And move on when I have the energy I stay healthy somehow Except for the lethargy scuffle up Cheetos And duck jeopardy Treachery is unavoidable I still exploit it tho Ice cold It's this again Poor excuse for a citizen Lack disciple I could have sworn I heard a voice but it's the wind I might be on a road to nowhere If so I'll take it alone I don't care, my hope froze Encased the cold I said I might be on a road to nowhere If so I'll take it alone I don't care, my hope froze Encased the cold

Been vilified for a while Look in my eyes, you'll find no denial This goes out to everyone I ever lied to I became the bad guy just for you Felt like I been vilified And demonized They think i can't act civilized I felt victimized In this sad life we can't all be idolized Some are bound to be spited We can't all be invited You could try to deny what's inside you Mad times Striving for the things money can't buy But one day you're gonna realize We all got a part to play And I'm the bad guy I accepted my fate Been rejected, no hate So many are subjected to suffering with no escape Pain is to be expected, oh great Men are filled with millions of imperfections Which if left neglected Will teach you a lesson The hard way and if you're trying to lessen the aggression My suggestion is to start today We all got a part to play and I'm the bad guy Look at me today, I'm the fat guy Look at me tomorrow, I'm the bald guy Look at me yesterday, never gave a fuck Probably never will So what? So I'll never be commended Instead alway condemned I didn't intend to offend Everyone I ever befriended Through desperate agendas Guess I'm demented How splendid People feel better about themselves when i'm around How transcendent Sometimes I pretend I'm one of them Still seeking vengeance Unable to kick this penchant For wearing smoke in and around my throat like a pendant But If I found a dollar on the ground I'd spend it On a cigarette Which will make me content until the end of this sentence Yes, I covet flesh Yes, I get death threats I'm depressed and detested I'm a testament to excess I'm excrement I congest and oppress and infect and and repress My intents to molest I've been told I'm awful, evil, terrible, amoral and a pest And yet I remain unimpressed Yes, I'm the bad guy

I see the sun set And wonder where the day went Some say as long as you're having a good time that's time well spent I try to live my life to the fullest and have no regrets But that state of mind might change yet Because I can't let The most fulfilling thing I do all day be when I get My ass out of bed and go outside to smoke a cigarette I dread facing the people I respect Seeing how much my negativity affects Their goodhearted gestures I reject I would resurrect my values if I knew how to I brought my self down, I was bound to I looked in the mirror the other day And said I don't even want to be around you but I cant go on without you And I don't know what to do Sure is a pity feeling blue Not enough dollars in my pocket to change my mood Oh, by the way, I'm addicted to drugs to Hey, maybe I'm screwed Maybe things'll never improve And I'm suck with this bad attitude But if that is a true claim I'll take it in stride And turn my guilty shame into filthy pride So far life has been a pretty shitty ride But I did all right considering I didn't even try

Life isn't fair You learn that day one It's all too much to bear by the time that day's done You can hear time tick in the beat of the drum Or watch it burn from the heat of the sun you can taste time fly from the tip of your tongue Or ten years later when your still coughing up lungs You can smell time rotting when you live in a slum But you notice it the most When it's crawling slow While you're alone and cold and numb If it wan't for the irreversible nature of time I'd redo everything I ever done If it wan't for the irreversible nature of time I'd redo everything I ever done You can lick your wounds which I do Or go looney tunes which I did But you're still inching away from the womb Into the waiting arms of some puny gloomy tomb if there's room for you Which there is I wish they'd stick me in the ground naked and careless Like when I came into the world before I knew what fair is Villains are just victims that are no longer children So, you stepped into the system Expecting to find a rhythm Without realizing you were imprisoned On the wrong side of the prism They say alcoholism is curable But autism isn't Neither is capitalism Our new religion where christians join hands with sinners To manipulate women and children If you'll pardon the euphemism Who took the youths ambition? I used to be a musician I used to perform compositions Now I'm more like an oral mortician Embalming the mortal remains of my morality With more discipline Might as well get it off my chest now before we're senior citizens No more heartwarming normality for me My inner war's first casualty's now long deceased After ego death arrogance increased Burning sexuality just took a short leave Until the morning when I force-feed Reality down my throat till I bleed At some point in time we've all been deceived Grieved Then reconfigured the fundamentals of what we believe Hiding beneath the sheets for weeks Time leaps forward But your progress creeps We're splitting at the seams Awake yet asleep The cost of living is far too steep Sometimes the irreversible nature of time makes me want to weep Weep, weep Sometimes the irreversible nature of time makes me want to weep Weep, weep Fast forward the bad moments and rewind the good times If I could Skip the breakup Play my first kiss and pause it Yeah, that would be good Facebook can't keep track of everyone I un-friended Burnt bridges can be rebuilt But these wounds will not be mended I used to be mature for my age Now I'm just demented Coulda been prevented Too late to turn back Ain't even worth the mention It would've all faded to black But I gave me an extension The irreversible nature of time will get me eventually Retained every shred of shame I ever gained Never say I didn't pay my penalty I only experience happiness seldomnly I don't know where my heart is I wish I was still sellin' weed Cuz the irreversible nature of time will be the death of me regardless And I'm still smoking' weed cuz eternity ain't shit to me You won't live to see it's mystery Gosh darn it