There's a pain in my heart and it's definitely broken
And scarred and frozen
Despite that fact it's still filled with potential devotion
Even though sometimes it seems like life moves in slow motion
Impotent
And I only see bad omens
And they all seem hopeless
And the only thing I have to show for these 21 years is my own soul's own erosion
No luck for the unchosen
Ego unswollen
Some things will remain unspoken
But sometimes in the moment my heart reopens
What's the cause of all the commotion?

I tried showing no emotion
Internally comatose
Diverting my focus
Far from those who I was supposed to hold closest
Exceeding my dosage
Believing my diagnosis
Becoming ferocious
Giving in to psychosis
And it was almost too late before I even noticed
I still indulge in coldness
It's bogus, I know this
Hard as I may try I can't escape my emotions

Emotional
Uncontrollable
I used to cry at the drop of a hat
And after all these years I'm still unconsolable
Told ya so
I should've known my love was disposable
Now the pain is the only thing that seems notable
It's unmistakable
Clear evidence that my heart is not unbreakable
And just when I think emotion is sweetly unattainable
It rears it's ugly head
Completely unexplainable
I try to remain indifferent but emotion is unescapable
Slave to the occasional
Burst of sensational inspiration
Wave after wave of insatiable debasement and elation
Quaking in anticipation
Of vivid inner hallucinations
Sebating lucid situations
Of my own creation
Much to my fascination and amazement
I made 6 mixtapes of the same shit
And they still haven't found a better replacement
my payment for patience?
Well I ain't famous you know this
I guess all I'm left with is entertainment and emotion

Don't let emotions hold you back
Don't let that bitch stab you in the back
I was gone, now I'm back
I was down, now I'm out
I was proud but now I don't even know what pride is all about
Call it a drought
I hope you figure that shit out
Before you flip out
Chill out
And if you sees us in these streets, well give us all a shout
And if we're still overfeeding our greedy mouths
And lying about like lazy louts
Maybe that's for the best
There's so much emotion pent up in this chest
That yes
I would love to express
My wrath in full
And raze a path of devastation like a raging bull
But baby that's bull
You could hate me, that's cool
I envy you fools
Memories are cruel
Emotion is a tool
And if you don't use it that's a bust
Smoke bud that's a must
Say, "so what, we're fucked"
Hard as I may try emotion shows up

Look, I done tried to duck
But
I had no luck
Seems like every time I've finally given up
Right on cue there's lust
Yup
Hard as I may try emotion shows up
Hard as I may try emotion shows up