Sometimes I stare in the mirror but I am not there
I know what I am, but not where
Life is not fair
But I was never scared
I don't need your prayers
The problems I have will no be repaired
I swear
I'd rather walk on glass then tread on air
My condition is rare
I'm in no position to care
Brooding in my lair
Glued to a chair
The worst part about being myself is being self-aware

Adderall and Ativan
Yeah, that's my caravan
Pull me up and drag me down
In a hole in higher ground
Going north, but headed south
And that's the truth straight from a liar's mouth

(KGC:)
I'm ashamed of my life on this planet
God damn it
What God would fuckin' plan this?
Just pop a couple tabs and let the trance hit
So fucked up off these drugs that I can't even manage
I vomit, black out, and wake up in a damn ditch
It's a metaphor for what my life has turned into
Look into my eyes and watch the demons burning through
No one around me seems to even notice
That I'm drowning in the same drugs that I used to fuckin' cope with
Liquor every night just to escape into a dream world
Shots to the head just a suicidal fiend curled
Up in a ball, get to the toilet, lean, hurl
Flush it down and watch as my dreams swirl
No escape, I can't seem to find the door
All I find is more idiots and mindless whores
Fuck man, is this really all my time is for?
No please, oh God, it can't be
How can someone love me when I can't fuckin' stand me?
Mind racing like a Grand Prix
Where's my next fix from?
No money for food but just enough to get drugs
Booze, shrooms and adderall
I used to think I had it all
Y'know, I used to think I had it all
But there's no denying that what goes up has to fall
And that mentality feeds this downward spiral
This vicious cycle eating it's way out of me
Destroying vital organs
This depression's viral
Forcing me to hold my own trial
And I pray every time that that fuckin' jury hangs me
Put me in the freezer, have the coroner slab me
Build me a pine box, drop me down fast, please
Throw some dirt on me
And let the maggots have my last feast
Cuz life goes on
Within me, without me, and past me

Fly's in my nostrils continue to climb
Deeper, while I remain docile, well past my prime
When I fuckin' end it a fossil's all they'll find as evidence of my hostile mind
The only thing I learned from life is that life is a colossal waste of time
Fly's crawl up my nose, death creeps up my spine
That's fine
I can kill tomorrow
Tonight's mine

Adderall and Ativan
Yeah, that's my caravan
Pull me up and drag me down
In a hole in higher ground
Going north, but headed south
And that's the truth straight from a liar's mouth

Adderall and Ativan
Yeah, that's my fuckin' caravan
Pull me up and drag me down
In a hole in higher ground
Going north, but headed south
And that's the truth straight from a liar's mouth